Bullying

Today was not a good day. It is safe to say it has been the worst I’ve had in a while. I don’t think loosing that job offer a few weeks ago was this deflating…

I made it to my 29th birthday without ever being bullied. Yes, I’ve had some really tough situations dealing with other people throughout the years, but never like this. As frustrating as this situation is and as much as I want to vent, all I’m going to say is that some people can seriously ruin your day and make you feel as if you’re a failure at what you do. What’s even more frustrating is that my hands are pretty much tied and I have to accommodate to the bully’s requests. How can I, as a counselor, ever tell children to stand up to bullies and make their voices heard when I find myself being bullied and there isn’t much I can do in my favor? 

It has been very stressful. In a few weeks I go back to being unemployed, I haven’t been sleeping well, and now this. I just don’t want to deal with things. Once more I’m seriously wondering if I chose the wrong field of work. I’m a firm believer that everything that is worth having doesn’t come easy. However, is it supposed to be this hard? Am I fighting too hard for something that it’s not meant to be? Am I fighting the wrong battle? 

Dit is een hoogdravend spreken…

Yes, that is a Dutch title for my very English post. Perhaps next time I’ll do a title in Spanish. In any case, if you have been reading my blog for a while you know that I like keeping things positive. I’m a firm believer that even when you’re having a “terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day”  you can still find beauty and happiness. There’s always a silver lining. However, some days even I need to rant. Today is one of those days. So here it goes…

• Why are so many guys my age (late 20s) dating girls in their early 20s??? Come on! 
• I absolutely loooove those “friends” who are constantly saying we should hang out but never materialize plans. If YOU tell me that you want to hang out and I tell you that since you’re the one working to let me know when you are free, then it is YOU who needs to tell me WHEN you are free. Makes no sense whatsoever for me to have to keep asking you when you’re free, specially
  

  You’ve been warned! lol

  since you were the one who wanted to hang out. Seriously, don’t waste my time.

  • P!nk’s lyrics for her newest single… seriously?? sigh. Like my sister would say, “I can’t even!”… Right from the start you were a thief. You stole my heart, and I your willing victim. I let you see the parts of me that weren’t all that pretty and with every touch you fixed them. 
• What’s with some people’s OBSESSION with my relationship status? If I’m meant to leave Singledom sometime in the future it will happen, SO LET IT BE!
• The other day I was talking to a friend of mine that lives in London and she was telling me about how two of her roommates are always making negative comments about America, listing all the things they dislike about this country, and saying that Americans aren’t friendly (and of course this is a statement they can make because they have met ALL 313,914,040 of us!). However, they still eat American food, watch American movies, buy clothes from American designers, listen to American artists. What gives?!? Rather stupid to be so vocal about your dislike for a country and a group of people that you support one way or another with your actions.
• If we’re going to be technical about it, America is actually the whole continent (North, Central, and South), not just the U.S… Just sayin’!

Ok, enough of that! Things I Love, Thursday is tomorrow and I have quite a few things I’m thankful for this week!